First
of all, I am doing this for me not for you. I want to give a new owner to the
words I never told you because I do not feel them mine anymore, because I am
not yours anymore.
Everything started slowly, without looking
for it nor wanting it. You were the improvised plan that always goes well. Your
voice became my favorite song; your caresses were the calm of my inner storm,
your eyes were the compass every time I lost myself and your arms became my
home. Damn, you were everything. I loved you so much that it hurt me and I
madly loved that pain because it reminded me that I was actually alive and I
had a body and a soul to adore you.
And
then it happened you became the monster that you promised to fight for me. I
loved you so much that it hurt me but I hated that pain because it reminded me
of you, your lies disguised as truths, your wicked games where I was always the
loser and your egoism that eventually killed me.
It took me a lot of time and effort to
finally understand that you never loved me as I deserved, that the problem was
not me but you, that there were not answers to my whys and finally to let you
go. My wounds are now scars which have become life lessons that make me
remember what I want, what I deserve and that my one and only love has always
been and will be me.